January 2011
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August 2010
1 post
June 2010
1 post
“Make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you...”
– Chris McCandless (via caryrandolph)
May 2010
1 post
Things that will be happening this year
A different job, a real job, a full-time, single job. A job with full benefits and vacation time and a generous personal day package.
Making my apartment more of a home. New TV, couch I actually enjoy sitting on, clean room.
Nurturing friendships that are positive and inspiring. Being around people that make me laugh.
Falling in like. Imagining the best relationship possible and living it....
April 2010
1 post
March 2010
2 posts
The grateful list
1. My puppy dog kitties that sleep on my head, purr in my ear, and follow me from room to room singing their songs.
2. Open windows and cool mornings
3. Gardening season, right around the corner
4. Dads that know computers. Dads that will drag me out to Best Buy and buy me ice cream cones when the last thing I should be doing, the only thing I want to do, is think and think and think.
5....
“Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.”
– Dalai Lama (via iamblessed) (via redcloud) (via singlebychoice) (via worldonfire) (via mandalay)
January 2010
2 posts
ebbnflow
“Look,” he said, “I fall in love every five minutes. I might be half in love with you now.”
“And I wonder if that’s my problem. Know it’s not. I suppose it’s that I fall in love so so so selectively and remain there too long. Make me loyal to the anchor and I’ll stay through rising water forever, it seems.”
via beenthinking
You're f^&*ing awesome with or without approval.
lovepuppy:
playnice:
Pep Talk: It is not your responsibility to make people like you and you have no control over whether or not people approve of you. Your job is to be great, not to make people recognize how great you are. You’re charming and lovely so, if someone isn’t all about you, I gotta figure it’s their problem.
Today remind yourself: I’m f^&*ing awesome with or without...
November 2009
1 post
On the thin line between mastery and madness.
beenthinking:
So you sit in the back of a darkened theater last night and you listen to one of your heroes speak. But the long arms and carnival whirls of an approaching migraine encroach. And the balcony suites swim and blend with the dim hooded aisle lights and the gurgle of women laughing too eagerly and somewhere in the noise you hear her: Barbara Kingsolver, reading herself in a thick...
September 2009
2 posts
“This is that part in every indie movie where the main character realizes how...”
– Jen (via lindsaymccown)
I have freshly painted toenails, cherry red and shiny. I pinned my hair into a messy bun, fussed over the proper twist of each wayward curl. My lips are stained a popsicle flush. And yet, I’m spending the night by myself, picking basil, making my own pizza, finishing a sewing project. This is enough.
August 2009
10 posts
beyond the curtain.
beenthinking:
Of course these nights are facts of life. You realize. They are not piteous. That’s not the point; They are marrow.
Here’s a complicated confession: You don’t want what you had back, now. That’s not right for anyone. And you’re not ready for someone new in your bed; It is a good time to be alone.
And yet…there is an undeniable or unavoidable vacuum where One Was and Another Is...
This is a chance to start over. I deserve to be...
women are meant to be loved, not to be understood.
beautifulordinaire:
Oscar Wilde, The Sphinx Without a Secret My uncle’s advice to his brand new son-in-law
I don't know what it means that I miss you so much
Yesterday: Crying myself to sleep. Wondering how it is that I became so isolated, when I made him the most important person in my life. Worrying that the roommate is leaving in less than two days. Feeling like this time, I might not make it as easily as the last. Feeling too tired to even think about it.
Today: Yummy breakfast. Eight-hour day. Garden work with my dad and brother. Getting through...
Grace Drifts In.
beautifulordinaire:
…Life is never all whimsy and perfection; it’s never all loss…the trick is which part you’ll choose to illuminate. And whether you’ll find a way to be tender with yourself and the rest of the world. (via beenthinking)
It is! It’s all a choice, especially happiness and contentment.
July 2009
15 posts
It is a delicate line between willful stupidity and living in the moment. Watch me toe it.
Productivity
I am getting shit done at work today. In reward, tonight I will:
- Get a fresh pedicure. Highlighter orange, or highlighter pink?
- Go for a run
- Clean the room, do some laundry
- Watch Entourage and fold towels
New rule:
You will not read any articles regarding “the state of” marriage or relationships. You are a thoughtful, compassionate person, and you know how to discuss, how to listen, how to be kind and forgiving. Relationships, in their function, are not a problem for you. These articles don’t teach you anything new, and they do make you fearful and cynical. Stop reading them.
What do you want to do?
I am not one of those people that loves weekends. In fact, I kind of dread them. So much unstructured time, so many opportunities to do so many different things, and an equal number of opportunities to feel bad about not doing what I don’t get to. I find them overwhelming.
To combat this, I usually end up making lists of things to get done—cleaning, work projects, chores. And...
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It’s nice having a summer birthday (aside from the obvious being able to wear sundresses and drink wine outside). It gives me a good 6-month schedule of reevaluating. See where I am at New Years, see where I am in July.
This year has been all over the place, in terms of pretty much everything—happiness, growth, relationships, career. If I ever said I wanted a more exciting mid-20s...
I’m having a really excellent day, which may or may not be because of the morning off and lunchtime margaritas.
Ok, let’s just say it was the margaritas.
Tonight, I have a whole evening to myself, and I plan to clean my house (to keep up with my committment to clean nightly), write up invoices for some recent freelance stuff, water my garden, and go for a run.
ah, summer.
Weekend:
The Hold Steady, beer in the afternoon, bounce castles, My Boys, books in bed, dinners with friends, hiking.
And in-between? Cleaning the entire house, laundry, dishes, a gym visit, freelance, up early on a Sunday.
I am learning that the key to working, happily, is a steady supply of things to look forward to. Although I do need time to myself, I think the greater challenge for me, right now, is...
"Spending so many years alone and observant made...
beautifulordinaire:
My friend Cory, to me, when I asked him what he felt he had benefited most from his five years of celibacy. (via turquoisebird)
I whole-heartedly second this.
Truth, V. 2
There is not a lot that is not going well in my life right now. Some major upheavals, some minor disappointments, some stasis, not knowing what to do next.
And sometimes, all of that makes me really sad. Write it anonymously on the internet really sad.
But the thing is, none of these hiccups are in and of themselves bad things. I have left a relationship that was not good for exploring life...
Memo to self:
Even though I know you’re going through a rough patch right now, and all you really want to do is curl up in a defeated little ball or, alternately, quit your job and commit full-time to the massive project of Fix It (!), I would like to remind you that the workplace is for working. You have at least one job you enjoy, and an 8-hour mental vacation from the what-ifs and woe-is-mes would not...
A leap of faith
I’m sick. Again. The fourth, fifth, sixth time since April? It’s hard to count when the “well” between not-wells lasts a few days, maybe a week, before the next round of coughs and fevers, stomache aches and missed days comes on. I worry it’s allergies, pretend I’ll tackle it by eating cleaner than I already do. No gluten, small meals, chemical-free. But the...
June 2009
20 posts
also, i am having a little crisis about turning 31...
yoginiinthehood:
need to pull it together.
is feeling adrift & unsure of what i’ve done with this year & disbelief that i’ve been a lawyer for five years and want to go back to school my biological clock talking to me?
or
is it the universal human experience?
I’m turning 26 in 3 weeks, with several good, but non-prestigious jobs, a deep, abiding wish to just quit all those...
splendidreally:
Letting go doesn’t mean we don’t care. Letting go doesn’t mean we shut down. Letting go means we stop trying to force outcomes and make people behave. It means we give up resistance to the way things are, for the moment. It means we stop trying to do the impossible – controlling that which we cannot – and instead, focus on what is possible –which usually means taking care of...
“I love to think about every experience as stepping stones, taking you along the...”
– The lovely and wonderful Elle Belle- who always offers the most poetic advice, exactly when you need to hear it. (via pinkhotel)
I love to think about life in these terms but I have to admit that I occassionally have a hard time remembering that life is like this and if you stood close enough to me...
Five things
1. Peonies on the bedside table. Pretty to wake up to, and they make my room smell like the tropics.
2. Finally finding a replacement for my beloved, recently be-shredded grey hoodie (kitties, I’m looking at you…).
3. New kitty halter and kitty leash. So Enks and I can read on the porch together (ok, one of us will read, one will chew on grass) and there will be no repeat chase...
On Therapy
I’ve started going to therapy again, after a six-month hiatus. My thoughts on therapy tend to waiver a lot, and although I sometimes find it useful, I more often find it boring and just rehashing what I already know. But, I’m struggling. My good friends are all ridiculously busy this summer (with worthy causes like…preparing to have a baby, working for the natural resources...
Why am I not surprised to see that this was... →
katoleary:
drunkengenius:
wannablessedbe:
She of the “single ladies is all jellus of me!” article?
Hell is other people, and most of them write for The Frisky.
Oh, now, come on. Women don’t need deep friendships once they have husbands! They’re only for when you don’t have a boyfriend, everyone knows that.
If I ever become one of these people, you will all stage an intervention, right?
...
FYI:
katoleary:
I am the lone person in the Milky Way galaxy who enjoyed Eat, Pray, Love.
Also: I almost wrote Prey above. That would be a different book entirely.
ETA: OK, I liked the first 2/3 of the book.
Nope. I’m currently working through it and rhapsodizing to everyone I know. I think I might have found it more annoying if she was preachy about her experiences, but as it stands,...
Discovery →
From the Vampire Weekend dude and the Ra Ra Riot dude.